truth is...

i'm deathly afraid of heights,
orange juice gives me a stomachache,
i watch a lot of old reruns of shows that are already cancelled on TV,
i believe i'm meant to live a short life,
i fear that i'll never find someone who truly loves me,
i hate divorces and i don't understand it most of the time,
human beings never cease to amaze me (good or bad),
i fear that i can't ever let anyone in enough to actually know me,
i don't believe in best friends anymore,
i try to keep my expectations low so that it won't hurt as much when i fall,
i'm afraid of cats,
i often sing very loud in my car when i'm alone,
i'm quite paranoid since i've moved,
snow white and alice in wonderland use to scare me when i was a kid,
almost 99% of religious people who preach to me are contradicting and it annoys me,
i'm usually an emotional wreck when it's that time of the month,
i talk to myself quite often (i think it makes me sane),
i daydream a lot of a different life,
i like cupcakes because they're cute but i really don't like how they taste,
i like to drive by myself to record stores and browse around for music until i get bored,
i've lived all over southern california,
nothing turns me on more than a sharp dress guy with tattoos, nice hair, pretty eyes, and an old polaroid camera in hand,
i worry a lot,
as each year goes by i realize that my memory gets worse and worse,
i'm often very insecure,
i use a lot of analogies to explain things,
i wish i knew how to play the guitar better,
sometimes i wonder if we're all just stories made up in a person's head (like mine) and that person is our God, when he wakes up, we cease to exisit,
i love to write and create even if i'm not that good,
i hate the greasy feeling of lotion,
the airport excites me but at the same time depresses me,
my parents call me May often but I don't know why,
john goodman is one of my all time favorite actors,
i know that in a snap of a finger that everything could be gone and that makes me realize how fragile life is.
appreciate, cherish, & love.