music, friends, and annoyances.

you're still not back,
and we're still not resting.
just know that we won't have one peaceful night of sleep,
without you here.

Long Beach yesterday was exactly what I needed,
our own AA-like meeting.
I haven't seen these guys in a very long while,
and it was refreshing talking about our demons over coffee like it didn't bother us anymore.
i miss the feeling of being the little girl in the group,
i miss not having to be the responsible one,
i miss these big brothers of mine who always had a way of making me feel better,
and i just miss having a good time while i'm sober.

in the middle of our jam session,
Craig brought up something we all agreed on.
we should just keep our mouths shut on good music,
we don't know how many times we got screwed by telling people about music we love!
they go telling there other friends and somehow they either ruin it,
or the band blows up and they start sucking!
it's a tragedy,
and a major let down when i see these groupies at the show standing there not even knowing the words or knowing all the words because they stayed up memorizing it so they can play it off as a real fan,
and the only reason they have, to listen to the band is because the dudes in it are "Hot".
it makes me want to puke all over there slutty outfits.
i remember when we use to go to shows and we'd see all these girls with make-up and there fucking purses and we'd just be like... "are you fucking kidding me? This is not a beauty pageant, we're at a fucking show. your hair and make-up will get fucked up and nothing is going to hide that face of yours then. Oh, and those purses? yeah, you're just asking to be robbed." It's ridiculous!
hey, do us all a favor!
go back to your radio station rock and hip hop and leave our shit the fuck alone.

i'm so heated about this,
i completely forgot what I was going to say about my next topic...
maybe i'll remember it again after i cool down from this one,
but until then i guess that's it.

And to my 'AA' buddies,
i'll see you soon again,
this time not months apart and we'll hang out more in the OC area again,
i promise.