is it weird that i choke up every time i see 'where the wild things are' trailer?

Longboarding nowadays are routine,
my Waimea is being put to good use.

Not much,
learning, living, && breathing.

Today,
will be my first attempt ever to ask for this special guy's number.
I feel like a little school girl;
giddy, nervous, excited, and a bit nauseated.
I'm glad I have all my friends to support me,
and force me into it.

Thank you friends.

09.09.09

It was harder than usual today to not open up a bottle,
or light up a cancer stick.
I wanted to,
oh so very badly it.
It took everything in me to push it to the back of my mind,
but I'm still clean,
so it must of worked.

I heard his voice today,
he called the wrong number.
It was awkward and short,
just the way it was suppose to be.

I watched Saosin play at Pacsun on Labor Day,
I have to admit, it was more amusing then it was musically entertaining.
If you were there you know what I mean.
There lead singer Cove Reber,
he's no longer the shy guy I use to see when he first joined the band.
No, his confidence seems to leak out of his ears,
maybe it's too much,
or maybe I'm just use to the shy guy he was.

There album is only a six out of ten to me,
it seems all too generic for me.
I mean there were high points in the record,
but I just expected more you know?

That's all I have for today,
maybe til another time we'll try again.

The shoreline calls the sea
for simple words and company.

i think i just found some time to breathe.

i've been feeling overwhelmed for the past week or so,
fall semester just started,
and life now just seems so rushed.
i miss the easy days of summer.

i realized so many things in these couple of days,
people change and even though i want to hold onto them selfishly and ignore the problems.
it's not fair to either of us.
there are bigger things out there for us,
one of us had to make the move.
it just so happen to be me.

i truly understand what people mean when they say love and embrace imperfections.
you can't replicate the exact same imperfections,
which makes them all so beautiful.
and besides, there is no perfection in this world
so why worry about something that is nonexistant?

all seriousness aside,
music is coming along great.
kim & i have been rehearsing a whole lot.
can't wait for the battle of the bands.
ooh,
and Greek season premier was on last night.
that most definitly made my day
and not only that it justified a new school year.
:]