It's all in my head, if you want, you can look inside

I have a midterm today,
and I should be studying still...
But I really can't concentrate.

The party on Saturday blowed,
scared the living crap out of me when the cops piled through the street and stopped us.
Thank goodness I'm never the one to drink and drive.
And if you're ever drunk,
please..
DON'T DRIVE!
Call a friend instead.

So, lately I've been thinking seriously about getting an Underoath tattoo...
Maybe with just the slashed O incorporating the word love or hope,
something small and simple.
I thought long and hard and came up with a reason for my spontanous thought;
first off, Underoath helped me through a lot with there music and helped me bond with a lot of special people, they're one of those bands that can make me smile whenever I hear there songs, one of the best bands I've seen live, and I know that ten or twenty years down the line from now I won't regret a thing about it...
Therefore, Sara and I were talking yesterday and decided that we're probably going to get one in Seattle.
:]

That is it for my update,
I need to go study and get ready for class.
peaceee.

For a moment I was warm and the world made sense

Today are one of those days, where I feel extremely ugly...
Without even trying.
Not that I try to look ugly,
I just don't try to look that presentable.

I hate these horrible waves of happiness
because once I come down from it,
I become miserable.
Just like today.
Yet,
the misery helps me write.
I guess...
You're damned if you do,
and you're damned if you don't.

Time for another change,
getting a dye job this thursday or friday I think...
Not sure yet though...
We'll see.

A couple of things worth mentioning.

(In no particular order am I going to attempt to organize my thoughts, just so you know. It's going to be a bumpy ride.)

I was driving the other day past the beach,
when an old memory suddenly flashed by me.
Laguna Beach with friends I'm no longer close to,
we can barely even call each other friends.
It was a nice day,
I even have the pictures still.


He makes me smile whenever I listen to his music,
and he phrases the most randomest/sweetest things.
Check out his band Owl City I bet you'll fall in love.
He sets me such a good mood!



I finally saved up enough money to get these shoes,
not only have the wait been long over due,
but I'm in desperate need of new shoes.
I can't keep wearing my old vans, they're falling apart.
And not only do they look good, it's for a good cause too.
"For every pair purchased, TOMS will donate a pair to a child in need"
I like that.


Rainbow Sandals!
The comfy-est sandals I've ever worn.
I really want a pair.
But they're a whopping 45 bucks!
EKK!


And last but certainly not least!
Isn't he adorable!?
In a couple of years I'll have one just like him.
:]

Stay like this weather swirls.

The weather's been weird lately,
really hot and then bone chilling cold.
Got me thinking,
how in the world am I going to survive the cold weather in Seattle when I only have zip-up hoodies.
I'm in desperate need of winter clothing and some nice looking boots won't hurt.

I broke my diet within two days,
cause I ran out of fruits and I ate a piece of bread.
:\
So I'm going to plan B, diet pills.

Sara and I were talking yesterday and making rough layout plans for our winter Seattle trip.
We've decided on a couple of things;
-Renting a Prius and just making it an eighteen hour roadtrip there.
-There's this pretty reasonable hotel right outside of Seattle that we're planning to book.
-Lastly, we need to save, save, save.

I'm really excited,
I just hope everything goes accordingly.

'Cause I stole your soul

Don't you ever get lonely?
'Cause it's no better for me
I still cannot breathe

I told myself that I was going to go on a diet today...
And as of right now, I'm still doing a pretty good job.
I woke up about an hour ago and I'm keeping myself busy,
so I haven't eaten yet.
And since a good chunk of my day is already gone,
I think I'll have no problem.
Wish me luck.

Spencer left yesterday.
On Friday was his last going away party for all of us to him,
and I missed it intentionally,
I made other plans with an old friend.
I knew if I went I was going to cry, and I wanted to be stronger than that.
But honestly, I rather of went and cried and spent my time there with him before he left than have the what if's bombarding my mind.
Besides, I had a horrible time spending it with an old friend,
he changed, and the worst part is...
I know that's going to be a lasting impression of him.

But I did spend the last couple of hours with Spence,
I called him when I got home,
and we met up.
We talked, we laughed, we cried as we watched the Los Angeles night view.
I didn't take him to the airport,
I didn't want to say goodbye.
Cause I was scared that it was going to be the last thing I'd ever say to him,
and that just wasn't going to cut it.

After he left,
I felt empty...
Cause pretty soon Kristen and Johnny is going to leave me too,
Florida is there next destination.
Adam's still not back,
Patrick and I drifted apart,
Brad is still a phone call away,
and Spence...He left yesterday.

I was thinking about Seattle this whole weekend,
I have it well mapped out in my mind.
And as soon as I save enough money I'm going to make the reservations for the car rental, hotels, and other important stuff like that so I get a guarantee by mid December.
That is if I end up going alone.
If I end up loving Seattle I might just move there there all together in a year or two.
There's nothing in California that's worth staying for anymore.