It's a New Year.

A lot of things have changed rapidly since the last post,
I think it's finally time for you to do some catching up.
Let's work our way up shall we?

I feel myself drifting further and further away from my "best friend",
I don't know what it is,
I honestly think she's just too caught up in her life now,
and to be completely honest I don't know how far this friendship is going to go.
I'm use to losing people in my life,
as sad as that sounds.
it doesn't bother me as much as I thought.
I don't even talk about it,
that's probably because the apathy is just eating itself whole.

My birthday is in a couple of days,
I'm finally turing the big 2-0.
Yes, I am a baby.
Among all my friends, I am the youngest
and it's strange to actually say I'm finally 20 when I feel like I've been 20 for three years now.

I am no longer in any kind of a relationship with Junior,
I don't even know if we can call our relationship a friendship either.
He wasn't my friend to start out with anyways.
To be honest,
I miss him a lot.
I miss laughing with him
and i really miss the fact that when I'm with him I feel like nothing in this world can touch me.
I don't even know how many times I've hinted to him,
how many times I've just wanted him to know that I do want this to work.
I don't think he gets the hints,
nor do I think this is ever going to work out.
Our timing is all wrong,
but then again,
my timing is always wrong.