is it silly?

i'm starting fresh again,
just like i did two years ago.
i need to leave all the baggage behind
and though i'm still not sure where i'm going i feel better than i did a week ago.

what i really want to talk about is kind of silly to be honest.
really silly.
i think i'm finally ready for that relationship that i've been wanting for a while,
but when the opportunity presents itself, right in front of me i push it away.
i have this really weird thing where i'm crushing on a guy that probably doesn't even know i exist,
as sad as that sounds,
i'm not going to sugarcoat it.

He's in a band, typical, but he's local and I've seen him a couple of times
live and well, i've bumped into him a couple of times too but that was a while back and i really didn't care much for him back then.
it was only recently when i saw a video of him singing, that's when the crushing commenced,
needless to say,
i'm a sucker for passion and he's got it, a lot of it.
well, i know it's completely silly and i'll probably never even come close to being his friend but hey, a girl can dream right?

the worst has yet to come,
there's this guy.
he's really sweet and he makes me smile like no other,
he brightens up my day and shows me all these bands he thinks I might like,
and texts me cute little things throughout the day.
my problem is one, he's a year younger than me and i don't dig younger guys at all,
second is, that guy i told you earlier about? the band guy?
well, let's just say,
i'm leaving my options open.
Gosh,
i'm a dunce i know!
i'm holding myself back for a guy who doesn't know i exist but if only he knows me,
maybe just maybe he might actually like me too?
*sigh*