romancin'

my roommate was a cute little ginger,
she was sweet,
but she also had a fiery side.
i called her Tess and she called me Winnifred,
it felt like we were best friends.
we even had matching mustache tattoos embedded on the side of our middle fingers.

we were sheltered from the vegas heat,
inside of our hotel suite looking over the strip.
we were here for business,
some kind of sorority convention.

i looked in the mirror,
i looked different.
my hair was longer, yet it was still the same shade of light brown,
my left arm was covered in colorful tattoos and the word live was tattooed onto my right wrist.
i felt pretty.

there was a knock on the door,
a shaggy blond with big soft green eyes looked at me with a big smile on his face.
he knew me, he knew me well.
i knew him,
i called him Tucker,
he was a swimmer and a frat boy.
he was different though,
he didn't act like the obnoxious frat guys i knew.
he was sweet, he was ambitious, and he loved me just the way i was.

i shivered when his cold lip ring touched my warm lips,
he smiled into the kiss.
a little seven year old boy with the same grin as his showed up from behind him.
they both shared the same big eyes, except his was bright blue and full of wonder.
other than little man, I called him Alex.
he adored me.

from what i remembered,
Tucker chased me down the hall as i chased after Alex with fits of giggles.
i was happy.
when he caught me,
he stared at me so full of love with those green eyes,
i couldn't help but fall in love with him.

i wanted to know more about him,
but instead,
i woke up.

i wish you were real.

i realized that dream was what i felt like i missed out on.
going to san diego,
joining a sorority,
meeting the guy of my dreams,
not being close to my family,
the different life i might of had if i had chosen that road.
none of this might be true,
but at least i got a little glimpse of what it could have been.