zero.

i'm getting so sick of the routine.
i go to school,
take cat naps,
eat,
jog,
write,
watch Bones, Always Sunny In Philadelphia, Son's of Anarchy (when they're on),
sleep,
and repeat.
there's no emotion in anything I do anymore.
Sometimes when I'm lucky,
I'll get excited for my shows,
but other than that...
Emotions are a second rate thing in my life.

i feel just as bad as when I was on prozac,
and that really bugs me.

i found the urge to have a boy in my life,
someone to call my boyfriend.
it's weird cause for the last two and a half almost three years,
i've repelled and pushed it out of my mind,
no matter how lonely I got.
I guess it just caught up to me.