i'm in too deep and i'm trying to keep my head above waters now...

it doesn't get any easier from here,
and it's just going to be a constant uphill battle.
i know...
but that's not going to stop me from trying,
no...
not until the day i die.

thank you friends,
for protecting me from what i want,
because what i want sometimes is really just not that good for me.
and thank you guys for putting up with my weird, complicated, irrational moods on crushing.
i know you probably don't realize it,
but it means the world to me...

as the number of days get closer to the deadline,
the more stress i am.
that is exactly why i don't deserve to like another person,
when i myself can't even get my own shit straight...