I seem to have lost what i never thought I had anyway.

"Everybody has problems. Everybody has bad times. Do we sacrifice all the good times because of them?"
Adam asked me repetitively for the past three days,
and I think I could finally answer him.
'No.'

Something hit me hard yesterday,
I've been an emotional, stressed out wreck for the past week or so because of this one boy. (and other various things going on in my life)
This one boy who has no clue that I like him,
he also has no clue that I'm trying extremely hard every day to get over him.
But like I said, I came to a realization that all this moping around and being sad over him will not change a thing.
His heart will always belong to his ex's and I'll just be making excuses for him day after day if I didn't get out of the loop.
I lost so much of myself when I got caught up in this situation I put myself in,
and now it's time to center and clean the bad out of my life and move on.
I want to be able to look him in the eyes again and pretend none of this ever happened...

And thanks again friends,
for being there every step of the way.
Without you guys I don't think I would've gotten that break-through as fast as I did.