growing up.

growing up is about letting things go,
growing up for me is about being a better person.
tonight was about growing up...

no matter how much i didn't want to be at this party tonight,
i went.
because i didn't want to give myself an excuse to miss my best friend's birthday party.
i have to admit,
i was miserable.
my best friend was off with her new beau doing their own thing,
my other friend was trying to get her buzz on,
i was stuck in many awkward situations,
and the worse part...
i couldn't get what i needed to say to you out of my chest.

when we finally decided to face these demons,
we fought.
we fought like we were already together,
then all of a sudden,
we just dropped it and you made me smile again...
i don't know how you do it,
but i'm glad you do.

then there's that SOB,
i know i said i'm done a whole lot of times,
but i'm serious this time.
i'm done.
i'm done.
i don't care about you anymore.
fuck you.
i'm over it.