rollercoaster.

I had the weirdest dream last night,
I arrived in some kind of huge theater getting ready to watch a movie (I couldn't remember which one)
then I realized there were many familiar faces in there.
all of a sudden I feel a nudge and realized it's some old friends I haven't seen in a while,
we were catching up in the middle of the stairs while people rushed to there seats until an usher came to tell us to take a seat.
Somehow we all scattered around and I just ended up taking the nearest seat closest by the stairs,
the lights dimmed and the curtains started to rise...
All of a sudden the section that I was sitting in started moving away from the rest of the other seats and we started moving on what seemed like a track around the giantic theater, it started speeding up and I gripped my handrest like my life depended on it before it actually started to get enjoyable.
Just as I thought that this wasn't all that bad I looked forward and the track broke off midway,
I looked around to see if this was only a trick,
but I soon found out it wasn't when everyone fell out of there seats and down to what seemed like a rectangular pool.
A baby was falling next to me as I desperately went to reach out for her,
I didn't want her to drown, and just as I grasped onto the little blanket she had wrapped around her tightly we fell into the pool,
but it wasn't anything I had thought, we weren't wet,
we didn't collide into the hard concrete either,
instead we defied gravity and floated as if we were in a body of water...
I didn't get to enjoy it,
because then I woke up...
And that was the end of my dream.

Now going back to reality,
I spent some time with Johnny this weekend. :]
Kristen went to Florida to look at some places,
I can't believe they're leaving me for Florida...
Anyways, this weekend was a reality check I guess,
Johnny told me that I needed to let my guards down and really accept people back into my life.
Cause lately I've been isolating myself as he likes to say...
Which I can't say isn't completely false,
but as for the accepting people back into my life?
I'm standing here with my arms wide open,
it's just that they're not making the effort to meet me half way,
that isn't exactly my fault.
*sigh*

On a lighter subject,
I went to a small little gig this Friday.
I saw it as a good time to write my paper on this show,
since it was cheap and I really didn't feel like going to a metal show on Saturday.
Turned out,
we ended up finding some good music.
Two noteable ones were Brightwood and Abandon Kansas,
so when you have time go and check them out.

And,it's funny how I'm such a spaz about germs
but yet, I'm attracted to all the boys who look dirty and who needs to shave.
hmm...