pitter platter.

i've realized that all the answers are really just right in front of me...
seems like i've been running around in circles in search of them,
somehow, each and every single time...
i've over looked them.
this time around,
i just hope that i don't lose them again,
cause it took a hell of a long time to find them.

i'm so glad that the weather report says it's going to rain in these next couple of days.
i just hope it pulls through,
cause i need hope and somehow...
rain is hope to me.
i really don't know how to explain it,
and my poor attempts to explain things nowadays aren't getting any better.
i've just lost my way with words, (i'm not even sure if i really had it back then, but i know it was better than what it is now)
i feel like i'm rambling most of the time,
which i hate.
i have so many insecurities,
i don't want expressing myself to be one of them.

going jogging tomorrow after class,
i'm really looking forward to it for some strange reason.
after that dream i had of jogging for miles on end and afterwards feeling extremely happy,
i just need to see if it feels that way when i'm actually awake.
i'm crossing my fingers.
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